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I WAS A NON-BELIEVER and I was very far from God, but He said to me “I AM!”. He literally replaced my heart with a new one, cleared my memory and showed me the truth about himself and about us – humans. EZEKIEL’s PROPHECY IS BEING FULFILLED [Ez 36,26-28] This is the testimony of WHO WE TRULY ARE.
A TESTIMONY TO THE FACT THAT
GOD LOVES ME (AND YOU)
God needed 1 second to save me. THIS IS A SUMMARY OF MY FIGHT. TESTIMONY OF MY CONVERSION. MAYBE IT CAN HELP ONE OF YOU.
I am probably just like most of you. As a child, I lived by ideals and trusted people completely.
As a teenager, I noticed that the world did not strive for perfection at all. I rebelled against what it was like. I told adults what it should be like, what I didn’t like about this world, what should be changed in this world. My faith was reduced to attending the Sunday mass. I tried to stick to the Ten Commandments and not hurt other people. And that was it. I’d heard many theories about God, but I never noticed his influence on my life. I often asked God about various things, but I did not hear any answer from Him.
At an older age, whatever plans I made for the future, nothing worked. I looked around at my friends and saw that they were getting along. Whatever they wished for, it was all coming true for them. And me, if I thought or talked about my plans one day, the next day suddenly there would be ten different obstacles stopping them from ever happening. On the other hand, when I didn’t want something, it would happen. I realized I had no influence on my life. You get a life just like any other person and you can’t do anything about it. It was a nightmare at the time. Now, in retrospect, I understand that it was not a curse, but a blessing. God was in my life through all of that. All these events have led me to the present day, the time of the greatest joy and happiness in my life. But then it was unbearable. I felt like a zombie, I was kind of alive, but I was looking at life from a distance, as if someone else was in chargé of it. There were problems in the family and with friends. Every new person in my life was a cause of suffering. I was starting to become afraid of people. I turned away from almost all of my friends and I didn’t want to make new ones. I asked God why it all was happening to me, but I didn’t hear an answer. I started to think he couldn’t see or hear me. I thought God didn’t notice I was born. I started to think I was some kind of a mistake in the system, that God didn’t register my birth in the records. It was hell.You breathe and you think, but it’s like you don’t have the right to your own life. So I stopped trying to do anything. I figured I’d wait quietly to die. And with that in mind, for a few years I would wake up every day hoping that today would be the end of this anguish. Iwas impatient and rebellious against everyone and everything. I’d had enough of everything. Every night I had horrible dreams. I stopped talking to God and going to church at all. I thought He was the God of other people,but not mine. I started thinking about apostasy. And then I got an answer from him.
08-12-2017 (Friday evening -Hour of Grace Day, which I had no idea about at the time)
A call from Mom about J. – brain tumour
Getting down on my knees to pray.
I said the following prayers:
Lord’s Prayer, Hail Mary, Apostles’ Creed, Beneath Thy Protection, Prayer to the Guardian Angel, Litany of Loreto of the Blessed Virgin Mary, Prayer to Our Lady of Lourdes, Prayer of John Paul II to the Lady of Lourdes, Prayer for families to Our Lady of Lourdes, Prayer to Our Lady of Lourdes, Litany to Our Lady of Lourdes, Prayer in grievousdistress to Judas Thaddaeus, Daily Prayer for protection to Judas Thaddaeus, Prayer to St. Judas Thaddaeus,Thanksgiving Prayer to St. Judas Thaddaeus, Litany to St. Judas Thaddaeus, Prayer to St. Rita, Litany to St. Rita, the daily Chaplet prayer of Father Pio, Prayer to Our Lady of Gietrzwałd, Novena to Our Lady of Gietrzwałd, Litany to Our Lady of Gietrzwałd, Prayer to receive grace through the intercession of the Servant of God Sister Stanisława Barbara Samulowska.
09-12-2017 (Saturday) Prayer all day until night.
Mass for the success of J.’s surgery.
Confession after 2 years of not going to church.
Prayer from about 8:00 PM to 2:00-3:00AM on the night from Sunday to Monday.
J. operated at the Children’s Health Centre.
After work prayers until late at night.
12-12-2017 (Tuesday) -18-12-2017 (Monday)
Continuation of prayers after work until late at night.
19-12-2017 (Tuesday evening)
THE DAY OF THE MIRACLE IN MY LIFE (the events of that day were written down by me on 20-12-2017so that I would never forget them)
“20-12-2017 at 10:33 PM (Wednesday)
Yesterday I received from our client, Ms H.L., oil from Loretto -miraculous oil from the village where Our Lady appeared. (I mistook the name of the place here and mistakenly thought that Our Lady revealed herself there, but now I know that the village is correctly named Loreto and it features the Holy House from Nazareth -the house where the Blessed Virgin Mary lived). I want to give it to M. and P. for J. After work I called P. to inform him that I had managed to get that oil. I wanted to ask him when I could come over to give them that oil. P. asked if Dad would be home for Christmas Eve dinner.)…] We finished the call. I was very moved and decided to call my mum to warn my parents that P. really wanted dad to be there. […] Mom said […] that she was going to the retreat, but she probably wasn’t going to go, because she probably wasn’t going to make it in time. It was 6:23:55 PM when I told her to go to the retreat, because we had to fight for J., because he can’t fight himself, he couldn’t do it. We finished the call. Mom said she’d go to church then.
P.’s words and my mother’s reaction, full of resignation, had such a strong effect on me that I burst out crying. I begged God, Jesus, Mother of God and all Saints for mercy, for ourselves and for J. I walked in circles around the room and bathroom.
At one point, when I walked into the room and crossed the threshold, I experienced an incredible feeling. Everything happened literally in one second. It was as if someone had poured total peace and calmness into me from above,a blissful relief embracing my body and soul, my thoughts, an incredible and all-encompassing joy. All the anxiety,stress and tension “flew out” of me in one second. Only bliss, relief, peace and joy remained. I had just been crying tears of sorrow and saying the words: God have mercy on us, Merciful Jesus, have mercy on us, but now I had tears of joy in my eyes, a big smile on my lips, and I was saying: “Thank you, Lord”, “Praise you, Almighty God, now and for eternity”, “Praise you, Almighty God, Merciful Jesus, Mother of God, Holy Spirit and all Saints”. I couldn’t stop this explosion of joy. She was just “pouring out” of me, pressing on my lips. For the next half hour to an hour I could not stop thanking God and praising Him. That act of grace happened to me between 6:30 PM and 7:00 PM on 19-12-2017. It was incredible.
Finally, I realized that someone in heaven had heard my cries and sorrows and showed mercy to me. At that moment, I just didn’t understand what was going on. What it all meant. Did it mean that a miracle was being performed (because I had prayed for the miracle of healing J.), or was it the moment when my prayers reached God, or did it just mean that I shouldn’t worry? The smile didn’t come off my face. In this blissful relief I fell asleep like a child, with the TV on, with the light and the computer on. I woke up about 2:30 AM at night. I turned off the TV and computer, prayed and went to sleep with a smile on my face. I felt like J. was going to be okay.
I don’t know who from the heavens visited my little apartment on the 11th floor. Whether it was Jesus Christ or the Holy Spirit, or perhaps Our Lady of Loreto, whose holy oil I had at home. I know one thing. I can compare what happened to me to seeing a UFO. Suddenly, my perception of this world and the invisible world changed. At a time like this, a person changes their outlook and priorities. It changes what is at the centre of existence in the universe.One is able to see clearly again. One can see that all that matters is love and concern for people. Nothing else is worth anything.
God, it’s amazing what happened to me. It was so unusual, out of this world. Total peace, bliss, joy. I couldn’t stop laughing through tears, praising God and thanking Him. Words were just flowing out of my mouth. Now it is 20-12-2017 at 11:22 PM, and I still feel total peace, no tension in my muscles, bliss in my soul. I feel as if my soul and body were bathed from the outside and from the inside in a source, I just don’t understand what source. Maybe mercy, maybe divine mercy. I feel like all the dirt in the nooks and crannies of my soul has been “washed out”. I feel clean. Almighty God thank you forever. God, it’s amazing, it’s unique, it’s out of this world, it’s wonderful. Oh,God, thank you.
GOD IS LOVE (IN ITS ENTIRETY AND WITHOUT LIMITATION)
JESUS IS THE TRUTH AND LIGHT AND LIFE.
THE ONE AND ONLY TRUE TRUTH,
(ILLUMINATING THE DARKNESS OF LIE, SIN AND OUR “AMNESIA” ABOUT OUR SELF-AWARENESS OF WHO WE ARE AND WHERE WE ARE GOING (PARADISE* IS OUR DESTINY, CREATED FOR US))
(IN PARADISE* WE WILL LIVE A TRULY ETERNAL LIFE,
WHICH HAS ALWAYS BEEN OUR DESTINY SINCE THE CREATION OF THE WORLD). *when I wrote “Paradise”, I meant the Kingdom of Heaven
IT’S what I felt in THAT moment.
I thank the Lord for letting my heart and mind know this truth”.
As I stood at the abyss of spiritual hell, one second of Grace changed me.
Being faced with such love, holy, holy, holy God, who is Love, it gets to you in all its brightness that you have been a sinner for years. After this experience, you start thinking about yourself: “Who I am to judge others. I am just as big a sinner, or even worse”. You don’t have the nerve to judge others anymore. You think:“My dear Dad has forgiven me for so many bad things over the years, so how can I not forgive someone who maybe a lesser sinner than I am?”.
I thought about it a lot and came to a conclusion that the whole avalanche of events was initiated by going to confession.
It was enough that after about 2 years of a total breakup in my relation with God I went to confession. I reached out a finger to Him, and He -the Father who had been waiting for me -grabbed my whole hand and pulled me towards himself. I had an impression that the medicine he served me was like a cure for my spiritual cancer. Like a “tailormade” treatment perfectly adjusted to me, to my spiritual ailments and enslavement.
Some “effects” of this treatment lasted for several months, others last until today.
From my notes:
|“The following changes took place over the next 2-3 months:||So far:|
|-I have stopped cursing (I’m still not doing it)||-I used to curse in every sentence|
|-I have forgiven people who had wronged me (all), I’m unable to hate people or the world. I feel only compassion for wrong-doers, I pray for them||-before I was unable to forgive|
|-for about 2 months I had no dreams (nothing at all) at night||-before I had nightmares almost every night|
|-for around 2 -3 months I felt in my chest as if I had an”empty” space, such a huge “hole”, “empty space” of a large size, very tender around the edges, as if covered with burning, live wounds|
|-for about 1 -2 months I was very sensitive to sin, I saw it everywhere, even in ordinary life situations, through the “eyes of Jesus”, in situations that I had not considered a sin||-I had been unaware of the sins committed in everyday situations, I did not notice them|
|-I still (24-07-2018) feel a great love for God, Jesus, the Holy Mother of God and the Holy Spirit||-I had believed that there was some good power that helped other people, but not me. God was neutral to me.|
|-the atmosphere in the apartment has changed. I don’t feel anybody’s presence here anymore, the TV does not turn on by itself anymore||-I had felt like I wasn’t alone in my apartment. The TV would turn on by itself. A few years ago, “something” tried to strangle me in my bed in the middle of the night.|
|-as a result of what happened for about two to three months I could not remember anything bad that had happened to me in my life due to other people; it was completely blocked in my head, like a wall I could not pass through||-before I kept thinking back to bad things that people have done to me|
|-I realized that God is a millimetre away from us, is everywhere, sees and hears everything||-I had thought God didn’t notice I was born. He couldn’t see or hear me.|
|-for about 1-2 months I prayed almost all the time, out loud or in my mind, at home, at work, at the shop, etc.||-before I couldn’t pray to God. I did not remember the words of the Lord’s Prayer and Hail Mary.|
|-immediately after this event, for about 1 month nothing could upset me, I felt total peace, patience, joy,spiritual fullness and sufficiency. I felt like I was “high”, I had slow reactions||-I had been nervous, stressed out, impatient, argumentative|
|-I felt that the “earthly” world was like the matrix, and that only that invisible world was the only real world|
|-the moment this miracle happened to me, I could have abandoned this world. I could have forgotten about this world all together. I felt like I could float above the earth. I forgot about this world completely. I could have died at that moment just to feel that love and that bliss for eternity. I wasn’t thinking about anything or anybody on earth, just to feel what I was feeling forever. So that these feelings never disappear from my heart, soul and body. At that moment, I wanted to die and be THERE already.|
|-from that moment on, I am afraid of only one thing: not to insult the Lord, who forgave me such things and who made me feel how much he loved me. With His help, I will never lose His love, I will not bring Him shame, I will not let Him down. With His help, I will do whatever He has destined me to do in my mortal life. May I back out or deviate from the path he has set for me. Amen.|
In that second something else was “explained” to me in my awareness. It’s as if my awareness had been replaced with a new one. It’s like it “cleared things up” in my head. This applies to all of humanity, to all of us.
That second, my eyes opened to the truth about who we really are – as humans. And the only truth – the one and most important truth for us as the human race -is that we are only and exclusively the children of the Only God, the Almighty. We’re not civilized monkeys, we’re much more important than that. I was made aware that we were born only for two purposes: to worship and love God, to pray to Him and to worship Him, and to love other people, to love each other. We forgot about it, but it’s the truth. This truth has not changed since the first day that God created us, and our “amnesia” about this fact will never change this truth.
I want you to know that I’d never thought about anything like this before. This consciousness appeared in my head at that moment and has remained with me ever since. I had no idea about these things before. At that moment,it was a total revelation. It’s as if somebody opened the door in my head. As if my consciousness had risen to a higher level. I can’t explain it any other way. I felt that my consciousness had been “freed”.
On that day I understood with all clarity that we were not created for such purposes as focusing on making a career, working hard to pay off a 30-year loan or opening as many bank accounts as possible. We focus on human affairs, with which we are wasting our time and forgetting our destiny. It was not God’s plan on the day of creation and it isn’t His plan now that you’re reading it. We’ve lost the meaning of our existence. We’ve completely forgotten who we are, you and I, and for what life God created us. We have forgotten what life He offered us at the very beginning and what life He wants us to lead now, at this moment of our earthly life.
We’re not living well, my dear parishioners. Man-made state systems contradict God’s will. All systems, because right now none of them see the man as a being of superior importance e.g. over profit or efficiency. Meanwhile, the Earth was given to all of us without exception, because we are all equal in the eyes of God. We’re human, and that’s enough. We are a value in ourselves, because we were created in the likeness of God, we have His Spirit. Then why do we allow ourselves to be enslaved? After all, the almighty God, our Father who loves us infinitely and waits for us to return to Him, to remember who we are, what our great value and meaning is, and how we are to live. He wants to help us. He loves us all very much. We don’t have to fight for existence!, push forward at any cost, we shouldn’t let anyone make us believe that. It is enough for us to turn to the Father, live with dignity as His children, and He will take care of everything.
The end of the spiritual and every other kind of slavery!
There is one God who has always loved us. We – people – are not gods, which today’s world, ruled by Satan, tries to make us believe. We people don’t stand a chance with Satan. Only the true, the only God has power over him.
That is why Satan has convinced us that we are gods, that we should continue to lie and turn our backs on our only saviour. All we have to do is realize that we are not gods,we are creations. We must return to the state of consciousness before original sin – erase hubris from our hearts. We should become humble, just like the creation should be humble before its Creator. In times when Satan tries to convince us that we do not need God for anything, that we can decide for ourselves, that we can do everything,we should really recognize God as our only God. You have to give up your “I”. We should ask the Holy Ghost what Jesus wants from us, waiting to hear the answer, and when it comes, do so. The Blessed Virgin Mary said: “Do whatever He tells you.” That’s all! Nothing has changed since the days of Mary and Jesus. That’s how we’re supposed to live. Completely put yourself, your ego, at the disposal of Jesus. Only then will we return to God, thus denying our rebellion, which was the original sin. We must completely surrender ourselves with trust in the Lord, trust in His will, because only He knows what is best for each of us and is driven by love for us. And that sounds like a cliché, but that cliché has been unchanged for centuries and is only true. This truth will set us free – spiritually and then in every other dimension: social, material, etc.
When it hit me, I remember that I couldn’t help but talk to my mother all emotional: people need to know! We forgot who we are! That’s not how we’re supposed to live. That’s not why we were born! We are slaves and we are not aware of this, but we are God’s beloved children! By God’s will by birth we are free, and the systems created by man enslave us, making one man an enemy and rival of another man! We fight for what doesn’t matter,we waste time on what Satan gives us. And we are only supposed to love God and people -that’s the world God wants us to live in. He will take care of the rest, because He is really our Father, our most beloved Father, who suffers as we see how we enslave ourselves and allow Satan to degrade us and others. God has fought so hard for us for centuries, and we don’t give a damn about it!
That’s more or less how it went. Aristotle must have experienced something similar when he shouted out “Eureka!” when he had his “revelation”.
But all of that is the most sincere truth. Our God the Father really lives and He gave us freedom. He even lets us answer “no” to his requests. Blessed Father Jerzy Popiełuszko also said that freedom is within us. True freedom, given to us by God. It is the right to live in freedom from anger, from rivalry, from hatred, from fear of love, and the right to trust in God and others. True inner freedom that spills out from the soul of man in his thoughts, actions, words, his perception of himself and people around him, his surroundings. Wouldn’t you like to live like this without fear, just happiness and freedom? It is not a utopia, it is the best option for us, supported by the will of God.
My heart hurts when I see people running faster and faster, working two jobs to make ends meet. We are slaves-sad but true. We have been divided. I think most of us see it, and every year it gets worse and worse with us. It is time to wake up, understand the truth, turn to God and change this world into the kingdom of God, where there is no room for any evil!
God will make us strong again in unity, united by one Spirit with Him. We will win the world by doing good. We will regain true happiness and peace in our hearts, families and homes.
Everything starts in our hearts – The kingdom of God or the kingdom of Satan.
We must conquer Satan in our hearts. This is where the most important battle is fought.
We have focused on getting as much from the world as possible for ourselves when we can have it “free” from God. We chase our tails and do not hear the voice of the Father saying that He will give us all that is best for us,but we must listen to Him. Listen to him, not your ego. We need to listen to his fatherly guidance for our life contained in the Decalogue, and He will take care of the rest. Let’s trust Jesus to the end, let’s go all in through our lives, let us follow the commandments of the loving Father, and everything around us will turn into His kingdom on Earth. If we stop looking for happiness on our own where there is no happiness, we’ll finally be able to catch a breath.
THERE’S NO MORE TIME TO WASTE. SATAN IS GETTING STRONGER AND STRONGER.
We must return to the Father who is just waiting to help everyone on this earth (just as he helped me).
THE ROAD IS KNOWN TO US. ITEM 1 IS A SINCERE CONFESSION.
The Father always knows when we’re lying, so why waste time on that? A lot of people are afraid of confession, but believe me, there’s nothing to be afraid of. I remember my confession after a two-year break. It was so liberating. When you hear that the priest comforts you, he gives you absolution and says: “I forgive you for your sins, go in peace”. Then Jesus was in that confessional, not the priest. It was His words I heard. Not a single word of reproach, just forgiving words, and like a soothing balm for my miserable heart. At that moment, I could have been floating with happiness if I was able to do that. The confessional is actually a door to another dimension. In that dimension, Jesus, who wants to help you, awaits you. He is not there to condemn you (even in the Bible there is probably not one mention of a time when he condemned someone who asked for help). He’s there to set you free. He knows that we are sinners and certainly does not delude himself that after the confession we shall never sin again, although we should try to break up with sin. If we start treating Jesus as our coach on the way to holiness, the perspective changes immediately. Because He wants to cooperate with us, He wants to help us and lead us to holiness. He’s not some kind of executioner or prosecutor. Satan is our accuser before God. Even when we stand before God after death, Jesus is our defender, not our accuser. He’s fair, but he’s also merciful. But every confession is an extension of the sacrament of baptism, a total purification. You don’t have to go to a well-known priest, you can go to a priest you don’t know, not to feel uncomfortable. But there is no other way to true happiness and freedom in truth. There is no other way to happiness forever. The day of my confession was a celebration in my heart. I felt like I’d come back from exile and wondered why I had waited so long to do so. Just like a prodigal daughter.
To those who have a very low opinion about themselves, who think that they no longer have a way back to God,that everything is lost, that it’s too late, and so on. I was in the same place and I’m telling you there’s a rescue, the one and only. It’s confession. In my case, my confession began with my return to God, my healing and release, my way to this miracle. You know, it is Satan who tells you that you are worthless in the eyes of God, so that you feel not worthy of forgiveness, afraid of confession. The truth is that Jesus wants you to come to him because He wants to save you because you have incredible value in the eyes of God. You’re his beloved child. And this is not some cliché slogan, it is the most real reality. He’s really waiting there, in the confessional. Just for you. He wants to tell you that He loves you, that He forgives you. Every time He forgives us, out of love for us, because we have so much value as people. Man in God’s eyes = the dearest child. I first felt this love during my confession after 2 years of absence from the church and then during that 1 second of my life. That unbelievable love, just love. Nothing on earth can compare to that. It was a physical experience as if someone bathed my soul and body in condensed love.
Luke 15, 1-10:
Now the tax collectors and sinners were all gathering around to hear Jesus. But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, “This man welcomes sinners and eats with them.” Then Jesus told them this parable: “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home.Then he calls his friends and neighbours together and says: «Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.»I tell you: that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety nine righteous persons who do not need to repent. Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins[a] and loses one. Doesn’t she light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbours together and says: «Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.»In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”
MAYBE THAT IS WHY I GOT THE HELP FROM HEAVEN 9 DAYS AFTER CONFESSION.
IF YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE ANY MORE -WHY WOULD YOU NOT TRY THIS, GO TO CONFESSION!
Well, our sins are different. But do you think Jesus doesn’t know about them already? So why prolong this ordeal? Don’t suffer any more. Tell him what is bothering you and breathe freely, free from all burdens!
MAN/WOMAN! YOU WERE CREATED FOR FREEDOM IN GOD, NOT FOR UNNECESSARY TORMENT! SO WHY DO YOU OBJECT TO YOUR NATURE? WHY ARE YOU SO TIRED AT YOUR OWN WISH?
REMEMBER: THE GREATER THE SINNER YOU ARE, THE MORE LOVE GOD WANTS TO OFFER YOU. DO YOU WANT PROOF OF THAT? WHAT ABOUT THE VOLUNTARY DEATH OF JESUS FOR YOU?
Jesus is a true warrior and a tough guy. He took on a mission: he descended into the sinful world from his heaven, he – voluntarily – took the cross on his shoulders, carried it to the place of his execution in the midst of insults, lay down on the cross, let himself be nailed to it, and died for you! Son of God, second person from the Holy Trinity. And he did it by praying for you until the very last second.
What proof do you still need to believe in the incredible value you have as a human being? It’s enough that you are who you are. God loves you the way you are, He made you so. Every man is unique and special. We are all equal in the eyes of God.
Each of us falls down and we will fall down, but the most important thing is not to get pulled away from God. SATAN WILL TRY TO TELL YOU THAT GOD DOESN’T WANT TO DEAL WITH YOU ANY MORE, THAT YOU HAVE LET HIM DOWN, BUT THAT’S A VICIOUS LIE AND A DECEPTION. GOD ALWAYS LOVES YOU THE SAME, not less and not more, because He couldn’t love you anymore. And he’s waiting patiently. He’s really like an earthly father. Imagine the most loving dad on earth. How would he treat you? How would he take you into his home even if you did something wrong? Dad in heaven is identical, he is really our beloved dad and the most forgiving one – just like an earthly dad.
IF SATAN DRAGS YOU DOWN THE WRONG PATH, WANTS TO DESTROY YOU, IT MEANS YOU’RE A THREAT TO HIM. HE IS AFRAID OF HOW MUCH GOOD YOU COULD DO, HOW MANY PEOPLE COULD GET AWAY FROM HIM.
Anyway, you’ll see how he really gets to work after confession, how the evil one will tempt you. But it’s nothing, it’s normal. When you get closer to God, the evil one wants to keep you. Even if you fall down again, run to the confessional again. Again and again. As many times as necessary. That’s what I do now. Even when Jesus fell under the weight of the cross, He rose again. He told us to follow in his footsteps exactly. When I sin, I say to myself: “God has shown me that he loves me so much”, I go to confession, I apologize to Dad for everything and again I can enjoy Life. He loves us all so much, not only me, but every man on Earth.
When you start to understand it and see that evil wants to get you again, you feel temptation, don’t worry. That means you’ve come close to God. THE DEVIL DOES NOT TEMPT THOSE WHO ARE ALREADY IN HIS HANDS, BUT PUTS THEIR CONSCIOUSNESS TO SLEEP AND LETS THE UNCONSCIOUS SINNERS LIVE OUT THEIR LAST DAYS IN A STATE OF SIN.
If you find that you have no sins, pray to the Holy Spirit for the gift of godliness. The Holy Spirit will show you your sins for your sake. Don’t worry, it’s nothing terrible. It was Satan who hid them from you so that you couldbe one of the “unaware”. Do you like it when someone deceives you? SATAN IS A FRAUD. JESUS WANTS TO GIVE YOU TRUE FREEDOM IN TRUTH, AND COURAGE. HE WANTS TO FORGIVE YOU, NOT ACCUSE YOU. HE’S THE OPPOSITE OF SATAN. THAT’S HOW IT IS.
Matthew 12, 15-21:
Aware of this, Jesus withdrew from that place. A large crowd followed him, and he healed all who were ill. He warned them not to tell others about him. This was to fulfil what was spoken through the prophet Isaiah: “Here is my servant whom I have chosen, the one I love, in whom I delight; I will put my Spirit on him, and he will proclaim justice to the nations. He will not quarrel or cry out; no one will hear his voice in the streets. A bruised reed he will not break, and a smouldering wick he will not snuff out, till he has brought justice through to victory. In his name the nations will put their hope.”
JESUS IS MY AND YOUR GREATEST PROTECTOR, LET US TRUST HIM, HE WILL ALWAYS PICK US UP – HE WILL FORGIVE AND GUIDE US.
HE’S THE ONLY WAY AND THE SAFEST WAY. BUT WE HAVE TO BE CALM AND TRUSTING TO DO ANYTHING HE TELLS US. THEN SATAN WILL NOT DEFEAT US TODAY OR NEVER.
JESUS RESISTED ALL TEMPTATIONS AND DEFEATED DEATH. NOW HE WANTS TO GUIDE US.
This is why there are confessionals to continue to pose a threat to Satan and to be a partner of God in the fight for true freedom and happiness – the happiness of us, our families, our children’s happiness.
CONFESSIONALS ARE THERE FOR US – SINNERS AND SAINTS
So this is mine and maybe your best, safest place on earth. That’s where we are freed from captivity. It’s a gift from God. AND IT ALSO LETS PRIESTS FEEL NEEDED.
From that day on, when God changed my life, I started going to confession regularly. Currently I go to confession every week or every two weeks. I’m very careful not to move away from God again. I see how the Evil One, through the actions of other people under his influence, wants to constantly prove to me that I am a sinner. Because I am. But in my heart and memory I still have that 1 second when Dad said and let me feel how much he loves me. I will never let Satan take me away from this Truth again. I will never let this truth be erased from my memory again.Anyway, there’s no other way for me now. Without Dad in Heaven, I will be lost. In the Gospel of St. Matthew 12,43-45 it is written:
“When an impure spirit comes out of a person, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. Then it says, ‘I will return to the house I left.’ When it arrives, it finds the house unoccupied, swept clean and put in order. Then it goes and takes with it seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that person is worse than the first. That is how it will be with this wicked generation.”
That is why, after healing and release, you cannot leave your heart “unoccupied”. That is why Jesus must be introduced to the heart in the form of the Eucharist. When He lives in your heart that has been swept clean and put in order, demons will not return to it.
The state of sanctifying grace after confession is more addictive than any other substance. Nothing can be more addictive to a person, light him up from the inside and from the outside. It’s unearthly joy and freedom. That’s why it’s so addictive. You stop being afraid of the truth about yourself because you believe in the love of God and His mercy. What should you be afraid of if God, your Father, who loves you faithfully and infinitely, and for whom nothing is impossible, has got your back?
We were baptised and brought up in the Catholic faith, and faith in the One and Only God is not a faith for wimps. We are warriors of God, brothers and sisters. God’s warriors in the fight against evil Satan, who still wants to make God believe that we’re worth nothing. He does this by turning us – people – against one another, against God and God against us. In general, he wants to divide us all up. God doesn’t let himself be persuaded to do so, because he knows what kind of people he created us to be. GOD KNOWS WE’RE NOT THE BAD ONES. HE KNOWS THAT FROM THE TIME OF ORIGINAL SIN WE ARE UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF THE SOURCE OF EVIL – SATAN. GOD BELIEVES IN US and goes out halfway down the road to meet us. He gave us free will (He loves us so much that he does not force us to do anything), so He lets us decide whether we want to walk our half of the way to Him. WE SHOULD BELIEVE IN HIS and listen to him. He’s been fighting for us for centuries. Let us walk the other half of the way to meet him and finally overcome Satan together with God, side by side. Often, instead of helping, we make it difficult for God to fight for us. FORTUNATELY HE’LL NEVER GIVE UP ON ME OR YOU. He’s just waiting for a sign from you. He’ll take care of the rest. He’ll defeat evil. HE’S OUR FATHER AND WE’RE HIS SONS AND DAUGHTERS. No father will leave a child in need, let alone God the Father, who is Love, three times holy, Satan’s enemy, the Father whose children are suffering.
Once we have confessed, we must persevere for as long as possible without sin. Our greatest rescue in the continued fight is participation is holy masses (as often as possible) and receiving the Eucharist, the second greatest weapon is the Holy Rosary, the third one is reading the Bible, and the fourth one is entrusting ourselves to Jesus through Mary’s hands. Also, fasting has great power. Fasting can stop God’s punishments.
PARTICIPATION IN MASS AND RECEPTION OF THE EUCHARIST
Catalina Rivas, a mystic, testifies of what exactly happens during the Mass, as it was revealed to her. It’s described in “The Mystery of the Holy Mass”. I’ll just say it’s amazing. During the Mass, the two worlds – the visible and the invisible one – begin to permeate each other. When you read Catalina Rivas’ testimony, you will never be bored at Mass again.
The Eucharist was given to us by Jesus himself during the last supper. It erases our light sins. It should be taken preferably every day, and as a last resort, once a week. Whoever accepts it with faith that it is the body of Jesus Christ will receive eternal life. Jesus, who always tells us the truth, said it himself.
John 6, 32-65 Jesus said to them: “Very truly I tell you, it is not Moses who has given you the bread from heaven, but it is my Father who gives you the true bread from heaven. For the bread of God is the bread that comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.” “Sir,” they said, “always give us this bread.” Then Jesus declared: “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty. But as I told you, you have seen me and still you do not believe. All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away. For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me. And this is the will of him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all those he has given me, but raise them up at the last day. For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.” At this the Jews there began to grumble about him because he said, “I am the bread that came down from heaven.” They said: “Is this not Jesus, the son of Joseph, whose father and mother we know? How can he now say, ‘I came down from heaven’?” “Stop grumbling among yourselves,” Jesus answered. “No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws them, and I will raise them up at the last day. It is written in the Prophets: ‘They will all be taught by God.’ Everyone who has heard the Father and learned from him comes to me. No one has seen the Father except the one who is from God; only he has seen the Father. Very truly I tell you, the one who believes has eternal life. I am the bread of life. Your ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness, yet they died. But here is the bread that comes down from heaven, which anyone may eat and not die. I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Whoever eats this bread will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world.” Then the Jews began to argue sharply among themselves, “How can this man give us his flesh to eat?” Jesus said to them, “Very truly I tell you, “Very truly I tell you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day. For my flesh is real food and my blood is real drink. Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me, and I in them. Just as the living Father sent me and I live because of the Father, so the one who feeds on me will live because of me. This is the bread that came down from heaven. Your ancestors ate manna and died, but whoever feeds on this bread will live forever.” He said this while teaching in the synagogue in Capernaum. On hearing it, many of his disciples said, “This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?” Aware that his disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to them, “Does this offend you? Then what if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you — they are full of the Spirit and life. Yet there are some of you who do not believe.” For Jesus had known from the beginning which of them did not believe and who would betray him. He went on to say, “This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled them.”
PRAYING THE HOLY ROSARY
The Rosary is a powerful weapon in the fight against Satan. Some people find it helpful to recite one tenth of the rosary, others one part, and others (like me) the whole rosary. I try to recite it every day.
The devil hates the Blessed Virgin Mary and is afraid of rosary prayers. Did you know that the rosary has 150 beads with which we say the prayer “Hail Mary”. This is the same as the number of kilometres Mary walked with Jesus in her womb right after the Annunciation, to visit her relative Elizabeth and bless her and St. John the Baptist. Every bead brings us closer to Mary. I felt many times when I prayed the whole rosary that Mary appeared next to me when I was praying the third part (around its half or towards the end). I feel this often, especially if I really focus on the prayer and stay focused to the end. Only when she is beside me I am not afraid that Satan will make me sin. Satan often does this by surprise when I lose my vigilance for a second, or by deception. You always have to be vigilant, because you don’t know whether in a second someone close to you or a stranger will use you to induce you to sin, such as revenge, bad word or thought, loss of faith. YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO BE VIGILANT.
The Rosary is a powerful shield and a weapon given to us – people for the final battle that is currently being fought against Satan. Mary, who will overcome Satan, calls us all to pray the rosary every day!
During the exorcisms held over Anneliese, Michel, the demon, when asked what he was most afraid of, spoke out: “the rosary because it is a powerful weapon against Satan and all demons.” Satan admitted that the rosary crushes him. During the exorcism, he was screaming: “Take it off, take it off, can’t you see it’s crushing me? My guts are coming out of me!” Another demon at the sight of a rosary said: “That damn chain with the cross at the end.”
St. Padre Pio of Pietrelcina said: “Satan seeks to destroy this prayer, but he will never succeed: this is the prayer of the One who triumphs over everything and everyone. It was she who taught us this, just as Jesus taught us Lord’s Prayer”.
During an exorcism, Satan says: “If you all knew him, I would be destroyed in a split second.”
We have such a weapon in our hands, and a lot of people don’t use it! Nothing will happen on its own. Let us help Mary and help ourselves! Let’s grab rosaries and go into battle! Let us chase Satan away from us and our families; let us chase him away from this planet. Let us show him what we can do and let’s not allow him to take over our souls and the whole world. Let’s not allow him to play with us like some submissive puppets. After all, we are who we are – the children of the Almighty God. We should walk with our heads high, and not be led by that loser. Meanwhile, he’s playing with us just like he wants to. Let’s show him where he belongs. The more of us pray, the faster he will be defeated. We are stronger with Mary. THERE IS NO MORE POWERFUL PRAYER THAN THE PRAYER OF THE ROSARY EXCEPT FOR THE HOLY MASS.
READING THE SCRIPTURES AND TRUSTING THE WORD
The words of the Scriptures heal all sicknesses of the soul and body. Jesus is the Word. Jesus is the Word that heals and frees you from evil, just as He did during His life on earth.
Matthew 8:16 “When evening had come, they brought to Him many who were demon-possessed. And He cast out the [evil] spirits with a word, and healed all who were sick”.
Matthew 9:35 “Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness”.
Scripture is like a chat between us and Jesus. You ask a question. You open the Bible on a random page. You read Jesus’ answer. That’s it. That’s how it is. Let us ask Jesus about everything we have in mind. He is truly alive, and the Scripture is His messenger with us.
Satan will do anything so that we do not read Jesus’ words, because he knows that they restore our dignity and tell us how to break out of the satanic loop. Satan hates the Scripture. He’s afraid of It. He is afraid of the truth in the Scriptures. He’s afraid we’ll find out the truth about ourselves. Think about it for a second. If he who degrades, oppresses and poisons our hearts with evil, fears that we will do something, then this is exactly what we should do! Even if we do not understand everything that is written, we must read it in spite of Satan. A day will come when we will understand. It is good to ask the Holy Spirit beforehand to help us understand what we read. Jesus never lied to us and never lies to any of us. He’s the whole Truth. The opposite of Satan, the liar.
But this is just the beginning of the road. Mary in Cana, before the transformation of water into wine, said: “Do whatever He tells you”. Once we have “heard” Jesus’ answer about what we have to do to solve our problem, we have to do everything we can. We must not change anything in our own way. Everything must be done exactly as He told us. Then our problem will be solved. We usually have our own plan for life, including for dealing with obstacles. But the next time you have a problem, trust in this “method”, leave it to Jesus, let Him manage the whole situation. You will see that He will lead you through this labyrinth of problems with master precision. BUT YOU HAVE TO TRUST HIM TO THE END AT EVERY STAGE OF THE PROCESS. Even if you had a different idea in your head. He won’t let you get hurt. He’s our best friend. If you trust an earthly friend, you can trust Jesus all the more. He’ll never leave you with your problem. He promised us that himself.
And the proof of that is His own words. Jesus dictated them to Father Dolindo Ruotolo in the 1940’s.“Your prayers are not as significant as this act of trusting in Me, remember it. There is no more effective novena than this one: >>Oh Jesus, I surrender myself to you, Jesus, take care of everything<<. When you see that things are getting complicated, recite the prayer in your soul with your eyes closed: >> Jesus, take care of everything! <<Do this all of you and you will see great continual silent miracles”.
Jesus also told us to say these words: “Why do you confuse yourselves by worrying? Leave the care of your affairs to me and everything will be peaceful. I say to you in truth that every act of true, blind, complete surrender to me produces the effect that you desire and resolves all difficult situations. Surrender to me does not mean to fret, to be upset, or to lose hope, nor does it mean offering to me a worried prayer asking me to follow you. Surrender means to placidly close the eyes of the soul, to turn away from thoughts of tribulation and to put yourself in my care, so that only I act. Saying You take care of it. It is against this surrender, deeply against it, to worry, to be nervous and to desire to think about the consequences of anything. It is like the confusion that children feel when they ask their mother to see to their needs, and then try to take care of those needs for themselves so that their childlike efforts get in their mother’s way. Close your eyes and let yourself be carried away on the flowing current of my grace; close your eyes and do not think of the present, turning your thoughts away from the future. Repose in me, believing in my goodness, and I promise you by my love that if you say: >>You take care of it<< I will take care of it all; I will console you, liberate you and guide you. And when I must lead you on a path different from the one you see, I will prepare you; I will carry you in my arms; I will let you find yourself, like children who have fallen asleep in their mother’s arms, on the other bank of the river. What troubles you and hurts you immensely are your reason, your thoughts and worry, and your desire at all costs to deal with what afflicts you”.
These are the words of Jesus himself! So let us do as He tells us! Let us trust him with our problems. Let’s put our problems on His shoulders. He can handle them. Let us believe Him and let Him guide us safely and to the best target for us.
Let us repent and believe in the Gospel. Let us change our way of thinking about ourselves, God and others, let us stop being afraid and let us believe Jesus to the end. Jesus wants us to finally stop being afraid of being good. Because that’s how we were created – good. He wants us to see that our God the Father is good and created a good world for us. If we believe the words of the Gospel, live according to them, we must not be afraid of anything, Jesus will grab our hand and guide us where we can do best. Eventually to the Kingdom of Heaven.
All Jesus asks is that we believe Him that He loves us and He will never leave us on our own halfway down the road. Jesus asks for our trust.
ENTRUSTING ONESELF TO JESUS THROUGH MARY
Mary will defeat Satan in the last days. She has received this mission from God. Satan, unable to do anything wrong to Mary because she is the Immaculate One, will attack us, her children. In such a situation, the safest place for us would be by Mary’s side. St. Louis Mary Grignion de Montfort created a programme that prepares us for the act of entrusting ourselves to Jesus through Mary. In this way, we surrender ourselves to Jesus in the bondage of love. Satan will do anything he can to keep you from believing. I experienced this myself, during the prayers recited within the programme and on the very day of signing the act. He didn’t let go until the last minute, using other people. Only with Mary will we be safe and Satan knows it.
THE WAR IS ON NOW AND IT’S NOT FOUGHT ON THE STREETS.
THE MOST IMPORTANT BATTLE IS IN OUR HEARTS AND FOR OUR HEARTS. Our free and good hearts are the only thing Satan wants to destroy in us. Let us DEFEND THEM AT ANY COST, even if we lose everything in the eyes of the world that is temporal and really meaningless.
Our goal is something priceless – salvation. SATAN STILL WANTS TO PROVE TO GOD THAT WE DON’T DESERVE SALVATION. Let’s not lose our chance for eternal happiness.
None of us is allowed to be an enemy to another human being, SATAN IS OUR ENEMY, NOT ANOTHER MAN. Even a man under the influence of Satan is not our enemy. We need to see further, to see with our hearts what is hidden from our eyes. The real enemy is invisible to our eyes.
SATAN IS SHOWING US A FALSE IMAGE OF ANOTHER MAN. He puts untruth in our heads, he tells us opinions about other people in our thoughts, he injects into our hearts a lack of trust in other people, about whom we often know nothing. Satan gives us false scenarios of events, e.g. that someone will hurt us or deceive us, that someone will misjudge us. He’s trying to force us to judge another man right away. By using a lie, he wants to divide us right away. In truth, only God knows us. We ourselves don’t know the whole story of another man. Let us never judge anyone! When you feel in your heart that you are beginning to judge someone, it means that Satan is attacking you. Then pray that the demon does not break through to your heart.
LET US FORGIVE OURSELVES AND OTHERS. IT’S THE MOST IMPORTANT THING. Otherwise, we’ll be in line with Satan – the accuser of man. The lack of forgiveness in your heart is Satan in your heart. If we can’t forgive, let us pray that this gift is given to us. I’m sure it will. God wants us to have hearts full of forgiveness, so He will listen to us. The man who hurts us is ONLY a submissive tool in Satan’s hand. Haven’t you ever been such a tool? If at least once you’ve been forgiven, you should forgive too.
Matthew 18,21-22 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?” Jesus answered, Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times. “
Jesus says that we must ALWAYS forgive! This is not because we do not want to harm another person (although it is also very important, because we are responsible for each other), but because we do not want to harm ourselves. If we do not forgive, at this point we become a co-worker of Satan – the accuser of the human race before God. Satan is our enemy, not that man – the same sinner as us. If we do not forgive, it is as if we are giving Satan material for further accusations against us before God. Satan wants to prove to God that you are worth nothing because you cannot forgive. This man, who is used by Satan, is only a tool for you to reveal your sinful nature in retaliation. With your own hands, your lack of forgiveness he wants to bring you down. It’s all Satanic treachery. That’s how you weave a whip to be used against yourself.
Satan wants to divide us, make us argue, and we have to stick together against him. We have to fight for each other. Due to our human nature, we feel a rebellion in us. We want to defend ourselves by attacking another human being. We must “break” this pattern of conduct. We defend ourselves by defending that man from Satan’s attack. Satan is between us. He’s our only enemy. You have to say “ENOUGH!”, stop and not give the devil any satisfaction. At the moment of attack from another human being, you have to start praying immediately for the one who is hurting us in order to cut off Satan’s path to his heart. THAT’S WHAT WE SHOULD ALWAYS DO TOWARDS PEOPLE WHO DO US WRONG. TO GIVE TO GOD EVERYTHING THAT COMES FROM THAT DIMENSION. Let him – our Father – take care of that. We can only pray. We can forgive immediately. There’s no other way.
Jesus advised Sister Faustina: “After the bitterness you have suffered, think what good you can do to the person who inflicted the suffering on you”. Blessing breaks the curse. It destroys the evil Satan wants to poison your heart with. We must not respond with evil to evil. Someone is hurting you – bless him, pray for him. Put this man under the protection of God. May God deal with his demons so that they don’t rule that man. Show Satan that you will not continue this wave of evil. Stop this wave with a blessing. Don’t let Satan be glad he came into your heart. And remember, Satan doesn’t give up so easily. He will comeback, but he will not win your heart if you forgive 77 times, i.e. always. You don’t have to be afraid to forgive. God loves you so much. You’re his beloved child. He can see and hear everything. Let this awareness give you strength and remove doubts in times of struggle.
No matter how hard we try, there will be a downfall, because we are all infected with evil. We may have a bad response to another human being. We can be both tormentors and victims. And so evil circulates between us. BUT LET’S NOT LET EVIL CONTROL OUR HEARTS! If we fall, it is then necessary to receive the Eucharist or go to Holy Confession (obligatory and as soon as possible in case of grave sin).
YOU HAVE TO STAY VIGILANT ALL THE TIME. In case of an attack, we cannot respond with aggression or defence, we must pray for that man with a demon in his heart. It’s that demon that’s attacking us. When we fend off his attack let’s not lose our vigilance, a second later the same or different one may try to approach us from another side. Satan is very patient and has known us all our lives. He knows how we can react in a specific situation, he knows our weaknesses, our “hot spots”. We, too, must be patient and persevering, let us not give up, let us not yield to impatience. Let us give everything in our thoughts to God. Let us pray for ourselves and for another man to the Blessed Virgin Mary and St. Michael the Archangel, let us call on the name of Jesus. It also helps to quote a freely chosen Scripture verse. We must sympathize with our tormentor who is unaware that he is under the influence of a demon. Every one of us falls. No wonder, because we’re constantly being attacked by demons. Each of us deserves the sympathy of those we’ve hurt.
LET’S RADICALLY OBSERVE THE DECALOGUE. If we feel that any sin is rooted in our own heart, let’s start a war against it. There is no alternative on this! Every single sin must be plucked from the heart like a weed. If we are still confessing the same sins, it means that we have not fulfilled the 5th condition of Confession –the Atonement to God and another human being. Until we do so, our sins will be repeated.
LET US WATCH OVER THE PURITY OF OUR HEARTS EVERY DAY, SO THAT SATAN DOES NOT HAVE A WAY TO TRICK US. He sees and hears everything, and will use our sin against us at the least appropriate time for us. Let us purify ourselves in the sacrament of Penance and Reconciliation. Purity = freedom and lack of fear.
WE ARE CREATED FOR GOOD AND FOR FREEDOM OF HEART. LET NO EVIL POISON OR ENSLAVE IT. It is not an easy battle, but whoever perseveres to the end in keeping God’s commandments, does not lose hope and believes in Jesus’ mercy, will be saved.
POPE JOHN PAUL II CALLED OUT TO US: “DO NOT BE AFRAID, OPEN THE DOOR TO CHRIST.”
LET US LISTEN TO HIS WORDS AND OPEN THE DOOR OF OUR HEARTS TO JESUS. LET HIM RULE IN OUR HEARTS. LET OUR HEARTS BE UNITED WITH HIS HEART. IT’S OUR ONLY SALVATION.
GOD IS WITH ALL OF US IN ONE HOLY SPIRIT.
I love you all. I had never expected such experiences in my life. I realized that it was all shown to me “for a reason”. I realized I couldn’t keep it all to myself anymore. I want, and I think God wants us all to know the truth. We all deserve to know the truth. WE HAVE A RIGHT TO KNOW WHO WE REALLY ARE AND WHAT WE REALLY ARE. THERE’S GOODNESS IN US. The same Truth Jesus told us when He walked on our Earth.
Let us repent and believe in the Gospel. May the good “embedded” in us change this world.
If you feel this truth in your hearts, share it with others. We all deserve it. Please, pass this testimony on. This is a testimony of us.
Supplement to Testimony:
I have experienced a miracle inside me.
The Lord gave me the grace to look at us humans and at our “earthly” world through His eyes.
I remember that the next day, after the miracle, when I was going to work and passing people on the street, I only thought of them as: “Soul”, “Child of God”. I felt in my heart such a great love for people, unlimited love and great peace in my heart. It was like God wanted to show me how He loves us. I realized that He loves all of us the same, without exception. Every human being without exception is of an equal value to Him. In His eyes, no man is worth more than another man. When I looked at other people, I felt in my heart the great sensitivity that a parent feels when they see his or her child.
God allowed me to experience something else. Just like on the next day after the miracle I felt in my chest as if there was a large empty space with a sore outline, later that feeling disappeared and something else appeared. I felt a different dimension in myself, I felt a heavenly sphere in my chest, I heard the voice of God in my heart. An incredible experience that lasted for several months. One day, I lost that heaven in me. Physically, I felt my soul “fade out”, become black. I don’t know why that happened. Whether I did something wrong or whether it was God’s will, I don’t know.
I think this heavenly experience was possible because God cleansed my soul. As I described in my testimony, I became “pure”. He wanted to help make me aware of our human identity. He wanted me to look at people through his eyes.
As a result of the fact that I existed in an extremely different reality – the heavenly one – I saw the other extremity, the earthly reality in which humans remains, with full transparency. God “awakened” the heaven in me and it made me sensitive to the hellish reality in which people exist. It was such a shock to me. It was like someone from heaven threw me into hell.
I felt an immeasurable love for God in my heart, I had heaven in me, and I saw so much evil around me. We don’t realize what a “twisted” reality we live in. We think this reality is normal. As people often say: “the world is what it is and will never change”. The truth which I saw is that we live in a hellish reality that we are not sensitive to. We have lost this sensitivity because we have been soaked in sin. We don’t “feel” God! And He’s right next to us. Even though we move, live and exist in Him, we have stopped feeling Him with every cell of our body! He calls to us “I am!” but we can’t hear Him. Sin has separated us from Him as if with a soundproof glass wall. But He’s still next to us! We do not see or hear Him, but He sees and hears us all, and suffers greatly with what has happened to us.
I felt through the heart of God and looked at people through His eyes.
I felt God’s great love and respect for EVERY man, and at the same time I experienced how He is treated by us. You don’t realize how sensitive God is to even the slightest sin! I’ve experienced it myself. In fact, every time we open our mouths, we insult the Lord. I remember being so sensitive to even the slightest sin in ordinary, seemingly everyday situations, that I was unable to “function” normally. When seeing or hearing any sin I felt as if hell was storming into this heavenly sphere in me. Besides, I felt as if someone was pressing onto my heart with two hands, so that many times I simply couldn’t breathe. I was suffocating as a result of that pressure on my heart. That evil attacked my soul and heart to destroy it, to poison it.
I remember a situation when I was passing two women talking about someone on the street. I heard three sentences from that conversation. Seemingly nothing special, it would seem like an ordinary conversation. But I, being able to experience how God hears it, heard three blasphemies against God and people instead of three sentences. In the three sentences, these women sinned three times: the sin of pride, gossip and criticism of others. That’s how God hears us right now. For us it is the most ordinary everyday life, but the Lord is holy, holy, holy and exists in other “spheres”, so to speak.
It all starts with the fact that we have turned away from God and turned to another human being. We have forgotten that it is in the direction of God that we should be facing. Not towards another human being or ourselves, we should be focused ONLY on God. He is our only God, our Alpha and Omega. We have everything from Him and we have to address Him with everything. He should be our best neighbour, trusted friend, doctor, and so on.
Meanwhile, we are forgetting about Him. This is probably the most forgotten God and our Father. If we have a problem, we call half the world and forget about God, who already knows the way out of the problem. In fact, only what He wants matters, He should be the beginning and the end of ALL of us, in every matter and every day.
We forget that what we humans want doesn’t matter at all. Only what God wants is important to us and everything depends on Him. Why, then, do we not negotiate our lives with Him, in whose hands it lies? We think our lives are up to us, and that’s not true.
He really EXISTS, He is a millimetre away from us, He sees and hears everything, He waits for us to hear Him and listen to Him. For much longer should He keep calling out to us: “I AM!”? We act like orphans, as if we were abandoned and have to deal with everything ourselves, which is not the case.
Do you know how God suffers seeing what Satan has done to us? The Holy Spirit whom we have in ourselves is deafened in us, and each of us has become a slave to demons. We act like some kind of submissive puppets controlled by demons. They’re just playing with us. We have lost our freedom as God’s children, our purity. Where is our Divine character, our pride in who we really are? We act like we’re in some kind of confusion, like some kind of “zombies”. I remember that when I noticed this reality, I wanted to start approaching people on the street and calling out to them: “Wake up! You don’t realize WHO YOU REALLY ARE!”
We really have God in us. We’ve all heard about it, but probably not many of us have felt it.
I have to testify to one more thing. The next day, after the miracle that happened in my life, I began to feel independent of the earthly world. It was like I was in control of the world, had power over it. Like the world belonged to me. I felt as if I was “separated” from this world and was looking at it from the outside, objectively. I saw the essence of the world from the outside, not as a part of this world, subordinate to it and dependent on it. I felt like the world was subordinate to me and not the other way round. I felt like I was in control of the world and not the other way round. I was like the whole world was subordinate to me. Maybe this is our natural state? Perhaps this is how we should all feel if the Holy Spirit were to awaken in us? I experienced that feeling for about a month, maybe longer.
The “Lord’s Prayer” was fulfilled in me.
Each verse of that prayer became my new reality.
– Our Father, – I felt like the beloved daughter of the Lord, I loved Him like the natural father.
– in heaven – I felt heaven in myself, I heard in myself the voice of God coming from that
– hallowed be thy name – realizing how much love the Heavenly Father has bestowed upon me, it triggered a response towards Him. When you realize that you have always had a beloved Dad, whom you have hurt so often, and whose love you are now experiencing, a great love awakens in you. You want to do everything so as not to bring Him any more sorrow or hurt His heart. You don’t want to cause him sadness or suffering. You want to feel this unbelievable love from the Father and for the Father forever. You see how much pain you have inflicted on Him over the years and He still loves you and cannot bear your enslavement by evil. I praised the Lord’s name not because of fear, compulsion, or because that is what a Catholic should do, but because of a pure love for the Heavenly Father
– thy Kingdom come – while experiencing love, heavenly freedom, heaven within me and hell around me, I called upon the Father to come and end this nightmare in which humanity is stuck
– thy will be done – I realized that only the Lord can free us from this hell. Only by submitting to His will, will we regain our freedom. Our human will and our ego is our way to hell. If we listen to our will and not to the will of God, we will not find our way to heaven. If we listen to God, He will lead us to Himself. It’s just our reality.
– on earth as in heaven – I wanted people to experience this heaven in themselves. The heaven that I felt. I prayed that the Lord would come and change this world and end the hell we live in
– give us today our daily bread – I felt free. I was free of any worries about tomorrow. It was such great certainty that Father is next to me and I don’t have to fight for anything anymore, I don’t have to worry about anything. He will feed me, dress me, take care of all needs, even the smallest ones. I felt like a child in his caring arms. ALL THE WORRIES ARE GONE. I WAS TOTALLY FREE AND HAPPY. All that was left was peace and joy of life. Every day I experience so many little miracles that the Father is doing in my life out of concern for me
– Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us – I realized that every person is possessed by evil, is a slave of demons. I realized that whoever is hurting me is actually a victim of evil and I should be compassionate to him. I understood that the “heavenly” state of the soul is our natural (original) state, but that every sin is the result of a defect in us. We do not need to be poisoned by a lack of forgiveness towards the ones who “suffer” from sin. I understood that only when one is aware of the immense love of God, one is not afraid to forgive, because one knows that by forgiving you do not lose anything. Our Father sees everything and always loves us the same, even if our brother or sister causes us pain. I understood that God does not approve of anyone doing harm to us. But we don’t have to respond with evil to evil. There is no need for this, because the Father will turn every evil that comes to us, and to which we respond with good, into a greater good for us. That’s how it works. I experience it every day.
– Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil – the Father in heaven tests us
sometimes. He does it when we go the wrong way. He wants to wake us up. He wants us to experience our weaknesses and see our weaknesses that can lead us to eternal destruction. Power grows in weakness. Every test is a sign of God’s love for us and a proof that He does not let us out of His sight and that He watches over us so that we do not get lost. He’s correcting our wrong turns.
The Kingdom of Heaven and the Kingdom of Satan
– The Kingdom of Heaven is the kingdom of liberty and equality of all men before the Lord.
– The earthly (Satanic) kingdom is the kingdom of enslavement – material exploitation and spiritual enslavement by demons.
– God incredibly respects every human being – His child. He gives us everything for free – materially and spiritually.
– The Earthly reality – man is a number, a cog in the machine of evil, who is to increase his “efficiency” in this machine; a puppet controlled by a demon, unaware of who he really is, deceived by false happiness in the form of a house on credit, cars on credit, business on credit, holidays on credit, etc., and so on.
– Heavenly reality – God loves us exactly as we are. He made us that way. We don’t have to change if we’re already perfect for God. To God, we’re already “the best”. We are his creation, aren’t we?
– Hellish reality – we are told that we must change in order to meet the expectations of another human being. Notice – not God’s, but another man’s! We must be the best – the fastest, the most beautiful, the most talented, the most hard-working and efficient, the richest, the most…, the best… Our pride tells us that some things are up to us, but the truth is different – anything we have is not up to us, but it is an undeserved grace and gift from the Lord (or in some cases from Satan). There’s no point in making any comparisons between people.
A civilization of hyenas is reigning the Earth. Whoever manages to take more for himself, wins. At least that’s what he thinks. You know how our Father suffers when He sees our enslavement and degradation. How He suffers terribly when we, His children, fight each other for a slice of bread! He wants to give us everything, He gives us a recipe for happiness, and we, fooled by today’s world filled with pride, do not see it. We can’t see or hear God. We act like orphans who have to fight for existence every day. Meanwhile, we don’t have to fight for existence!
Please, just think about it. The Kingdom of Heaven is the kingdom of happiness. Its ruler tells us what we need to change if we want peace on Earth as well. And we ignore it and, what is interesting, we pretend to God that He does nothing but look at this hell on Earth.
God has already told us what to do. We have to change ourselves – convert, confess (to protect ourselves from demons). Only in a pure heart can we hear the voice of God and not be swayed. We should pray a lot, go back to the basics.
Let’s stop fighting for a slice of bread, God wants to give us a lot more!
Today’s political and economic systems deliberately create such an evil reality that man loses the true dignity of a God’s child. They’re trying to fool us, make us argue and humiliate us. We’re supposed to forget who we really are and we don’t have time to realize it.
I ALREADY KNOW WHO WE REALLY ARE. It was made clear to me at the moment of that miracle in my life.
Do you realize WHO we are? We are really HIS children! We have in us His Spirit – the Holy Spirit! God Himself is within our bodies! We were created to be free at our Father’s side. Every civilization that destroys human dignity, enslaves us in any way, turns man against man, comes from Satan and should be destroyed in the bud!
If we were to think of the world as a matrix created by God Himself, sin would be treated as an error in that matrix. Sin is a falsification, a mistake in the earthly reality God intended for us. More and more often we treat sin as something normal, we are accustomed to sin. Meanwhile, sin was and still is a DEFECT in the original matrix, not the norm. It’s like a “SYSTEM ERROR”. God, looking down on this matrix, sees clearly all “system errors”.
Satan, who entices us with a piece of gold, metal and plastic, brings us down to such a value: of gold, metal and plastic.
WE ARE CHILDREN OF GOD HIMSELF! – CAN YOU DREAM OF ANYTHING MORE THAN BEING A CHILD OF THE CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE? This is the only true reality that is so hard for us to see. It’s like a slave finding out he’s the son of the ruler of the universe himself! I’ve been given the opportunity to know and feel the truth, and I want everyone to know it.
Let us not give our souls and bodies away for gold, metal and plastic. Let’s not make slaves of ourselves. THAT’S NOT WHY WE WERE BORN – TO BE SLAVES TO SATAN.
When the miracle happened in my life in my heart, I felt God’s deep respect and love for man. Everything else, true freedom and happiness, stems from this.
THIS IS OUR FUTURE! Not wars, cataclysms, famine, ONLY GOD – our true Father.
Let’s wake up from that stagnation we’re stuck in. Let us do what is necessary to bring the Lord into our world, for us and our children. May our children live a free life, surrounded by respect and true happiness.
Let us repent and believe in the Gospel. All the tools for change are already in our hands. We don’t need anything else! Let me give you an example of my story. All you need is:
1) To confess. My confession after 2 years of not attending the holy mass “initiated” the
2) To receive the Eucharist. THE EUCHARIST IS LIVING JESUS. As a result of this
miracle, I became very sensitive to the presence of the Holy Spirit and Jesus. AFTER
RECEIVING THE EUCHARIST I FEEL THAT THE HOLY SPIRIT FILLS ME
WITH THE EUCHARIST AS IF IT WAS ENTERING MY HEART.
3) Pray not because you have to, but to show your love for God. We were created to
receive love from God and to show it to Him through prayer. PRAYER IS THE WAY
to connect with God. I prayed for several days before the miracle happened in my life.
I PRAYED A GREAT DEAL TO THE VIRGIN MARY. SHE IS THE MEDIATOR OF ALL GRACES AND IT IS THANKS TO HER THAT I EXPERIENCED THESE GRACES AT THE TIME OF THE MIRACLE.
4) Read the Bible. His words erase our venial sins, close open doors of our hearts to
Satan, heal us and show us the truth about who we really are and where we are going.
5) To pray the rosary. This is our weapon for today’s times, when Satan wants to finally
6) To fast with bread and water.
7) To entrust ourselves to Jesus through Mary, the demon slayer.
Our Father is really alive. He is Almighty – it is true, but He is also the most beloved and
tender Father in the universe. We can come to Him with anything, tell Him anything,
complain about anything. Just don’t pretend to be someone you’re not in front of him.
Honesty above all else.
He’s worth our most tender love. His tender and sensitive heart suffers so much from our enslavement to sin. Let us soothe His heart. Let us do something for Him – for a change.
Let’s listen to His fatherly advice. Let us love and let love redefine the direction in which
our families, societies and the whole world are heading. Whatever opposes love and
respect for others, let it leave our hearts and the reality around us.
Let the love for God and other people be the most important goal and priority of our
existence on Earth. Let it bring the world back on the right track.
ONLY LOVE WILL SAVE US.
Stay with God.
EZEKIEL’s PROPHECY ABOUT ISRAEL (POLAND)
36.1Also, thou son of man, prophesy unto the mountains of Israel, and say, Ye mountains of Israel, hear the word of the LORD:
2 Thus saith the Lord GOD; Because the enemy hath said against you, Aha, even the ancient high places are ours in possession:
3 Therefore prophesy and say, Thus saith the Lord GOD; Because they have made you desolate, and swallowed you up on every side, that ye might be a possession unto the residue of the heathen, and ye are taken up in the lips of talkers, and are an infamy of the people:
4 Therefore, ye mountains of Israel, hear the word of the Lord GOD; Thus saith the Lord GOD to the mountains, and to the hills, to the rivers, and to the valleys, to the desolate wastes, and to the cities that are forsaken, which became a prey and derision to the residue of the heathen that are round about;
5 Therefore thus saith the Lord GOD; Surely in the fire of my jealousy have I spoken against the residue of the heathen, and against all Idumea, which have appointed my land into their possession with the joy of all their heart, with despiteful minds, to cast it out for a prey.
6 Prophesy therefore concerning the land of Israel, and say unto the mountains, and to the hills, to the rivers, and to the valleys, Thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, I have spoken in my jealousy and in my fury, because ye have borne the shame of the heathen.
7 Therefore thus saith the Lord GOD; I have lifted up mine hand, Surely the heathen that are about you, they shall bear their shame.
8 But ye, O mountains of Israel, ye shall shoot forth your branches, and yield your fruit to my people of Israel; for they are at hand to come.
9 For, behold, I am for you, and I will turn unto you, and ye shall be tilled and sown.
10 And I will multiply men upon you, all the house of Israel, even all of it: and the cities shall be inhabited, and the wastes shall be builded.
11 And I will multiply upon you man and beast; and they shall increase and bring fruit: and I will settle you after your old estates, and will do better unto you than at your beginnings: and ye shall know that I am the LORD.
12 Yea, I will cause men to walk upon you, even my people Israel; and they shall possess thee, and thou shalt be their inheritance, and thou shalt no more henceforth bereave them of men.
13 Thus saith the Lord GOD; Because they say unto you, Thou land devourest up men, and hast bereaved thy nations;
14 Therefore thou shalt devour men no more, neither bereave thy nations any more, saith the Lord GOD.
15 Neither will I cause men to hear in thee the shame of the heathen any more, neither shalt thou bear the reproach of the people any more, neither shalt thou cause thy nations to fall any more, saith the Lord GOD.
16 Moreover the word of the LORD came unto me, saying,
17 Son of man, when the house of Israel dwelt in their own land, they defiled it by their own way and by their doings: their way was before me as the uncleanness of a removed woman.
18 Wherefore I poured my fury upon them for the blood that they had shed upon the land, and for their idols wherewith they had polluted it:
19 And I scattered them among the heathen, and they were dispersed through the countries: according to their way and according to their doings I judged them.
20 And when they entered unto the heathen, whither they went, they profaned my holy name, when they said to them, These are the people of the LORD, and are gone forth out of his land.
21 But I had pity for mine holy name, which the house of Israel had profaned among the heathen, whither they went.
22 Therefore say unto the house of Israel, Thus saith the Lord GOD; I do not this for your sakes, O house of Israel, but for mine holy name’s sake, which ye have profaned among the heathen, whither ye went.
23 And I will sanctify my great name, which was profaned among the heathen, which ye have profaned in the midst of them; and the heathen shall know that I am the LORD, saith the Lord GOD, when I shall be sanctified in you before their eyes.
24 For I will take you from among the heathen, and gather you out of all countries, and will bring you into your own land.
25 Then will I sprinkle clean water upon you, and ye shall be clean: from all your filthiness, and from all your idols, will I cleanse you.
26 A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh.
27 And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them.
28 And ye shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; and ye shall be my people, and I will be your God.
29 I will also save you from all your uncleannesses: and I will call for the corn, and will increase it, and lay no famine upon you.
30 And I will multiply the fruit of the tree, and the increase of the field, that ye shall receive no more reproach of famine among the heathen.
31 Then shall ye remember your own evil ways, and your doings that were not good, and shall lothe yourselves in your own sight for your iniquities and for your abominations.
32 Not for your sakes do I this, saith the Lord GOD, be it known unto you: be ashamed and confounded for your own ways, O house of Israel.
33 Thus saith the Lord GOD; In the day that I shall have cleansed you from all your iniquities I will also cause you to dwell in the cities, and the wastes shall be builded.
34 And the desolate land shall be tilled, whereas it lay desolate in the sight of all that passed by.
35 And they shall say, This land that was desolate is become like the garden of Eden; and the waste and desolate and ruined cities are become fenced, and are inhabited.
36 Then the heathen that are left round about you shall know that I the LORD build the ruined places, and plant that that was desolate: I the LORD have spoken it, and I will do it.
37 Thus saith the Lord GOD; I will yet for this be inquired of by the house of Israel, to do it for them; I will increase them with men like a flock.
38 As the holy flock, as the flock of Jerusalem in her solemn feasts; so shall the waste cities be filled with flocks of men: and they shall know that I am the LORD.
37.1The hand of the LORD was upon me, and carried me out in the spirit of the LORD, and set me down in the midst of the valley which was full of bones,
2 And caused me to pass by them round about: and, behold, there were very many in the open valley; and, lo, they were very dry.
3 And he said unto me, Son of man, can these bones live? And I answered, O Lord GOD, thou knowest.
4 Again he said unto me, Prophesy upon these bones, and say unto them, O ye dry bones, hear the word of the LORD.
5 Thus saith the Lord GOD unto these bones; Behold, I will cause breath to enter into you, and ye shall live
6 And I will lay sinews upon you, and will bring up flesh upon you, and cover you with skin, and put breath in you, and ye shall live; and ye shall know that I am the LORD.
7 So I prophesied as I was commanded: and as I prophesied, there was a noise, and behold a shaking, and the bones came together, bone to his bone.
8 And when I beheld, lo, the sinews and the flesh came up upon them, and the skin covered them above: but there was no breath in them.
9 Then said he unto me, Prophesy unto the wind, prophesy, son of man, and say to the wind, Thus saith the Lord GOD; Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe upon these slain, that they may live.
10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and the breath came into them, and they lived, and stood up upon their feet, an exceeding great army.
11 Then he said unto me, Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel: behold, they say, Our bones are dried, and our hope is lost: we are cut off for our parts.
12 Therefore prophesy and say unto them, Thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, O my people, I will open your graves, and cause you to come up out of your graves, and bring you into the land of Israel.
13 And ye shall know that I am the LORD, when I have opened your graves, O my people, and brought you up out of your graves,
14 And shall put my spirit in you, and ye shall live, and I shall place you in your own land: then shall ye know that I the LORD have spoken it, and performed it, saith the LORD.
15 The word of the LORD came again unto me, saying,
16 Moreover, thou son of man, take thee one stick, and write upon it, For Judah, and for the children of Israel his companions: then take another stick, and write upon it, For Joseph, the stick of Ephraim, and for all the house of Israel his companions.
17 And join them one to another into one stick; and they shall become one in thine hand.
18 And when the children of thy people shall speak unto thee, saying, Wilt thou not shew us what thou meanest by these?
19 Say unto them, Thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, I will take the stick of Joseph, which is in the hand of Ephraim, and the tribes of Israel his fellows, and will put them with him, even with the stick of Judah, and make them one stick, and they shall be one in mine hand.
20 And the sticks whereon thou writest shall be in thine hand before their eyes.
21 And say unto them, Thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, I will take the children of Israel from among the heathen, whither they be gone, and will gather them on every side, and bring them into their own land.
22 And I will make them one nation in the land upon the mountains of Israel; and one king shall be king to them all: and they shall be no more two nations, neither shall they be divided into two kingdoms any more at all.
23 Neither shall they defile themselves any more with their idols, nor with their detestable things, nor with any of their transgressions: but I will save them out of all their dwelling places, wherein they have sinned, and will cleanse them: so shall they be my people, and I will be their God.
24 And David my servant shall be king over them; and they all shall have one shepherd: they shall also walk in my judgments, and observe my statutes, and do them.
25 And they shall dwell in the land that I have given unto Jacob my servant, wherein your fathers have dwelt; and they shall dwell therein, even they, and their children, and their children’s children for ever: and my servant David shall be their prince for ever.
26 Moreover I will make a covenant of peace with them; it shall be an everlasting covenant with them: and I will place them, and multiply them, and will set my sanctuary in the midst of them for evermore.
27 My tabernacle also shall be with them: yea, I will be their God, and they shall be my people.
28 And the heathen shall know that I the LORD do sanctify Israel, when my sanctuary shall be in the midst of them for evermore.
JUST LIKE ISRAEL IN THE PAST, POLAND IS TO PREPARE THE WORLD FOR JESUS RETURN.
EZEKIEL’s PROPHECY ABOUT ISRAEL (POLAND) IS BEING FULFILLED.
LET’S CONVERT OURSELVES, LET’S DO PENANCE, BECAUSE IT’S TIME FOR THE LORD’S RETURN.